I think this year reminded me why fandom became emotionally important to me in the first place years ago. Not because of obsession. Not because I wanted to escape reality completely. But because fandom creates comfort. Routine. Community. Lightness. And honestly? After everything emotionally heavy that happened this year, I…

If I’m being honest, I didn’t think I would become this emotionally attached to livestream routines again. At first, it was casual entertainment. Something lighthearted to watch after long days. But somewhere along the way, those streams quietly became part of my emotional routine. And honestly? I didn’t fully realize…

I honestly thought my algorithm was already settled after discovering Aluo. And then somehow, Chuan Nan suddenly appeared too. At first, it was just random clips showing up occasionally. Then more clips. Then livestream moments. Then suddenly I realized I already recognized his voice, expressions, habits, and little mannerisms without…