A year ago, I probably would’ve laughed at the idea of paying for VIP fan memberships. And yet somewhere along the way, I found myself carefully thinking through whether I wanted to subscribe to Aluo and Chuan Nan’s memberships. Not impulsively. Not emotionally recklessly. Surprisingly responsibly, actually. I spent time…

A few days ago, I received a fan box from China filled with memorabilia from Chuan Nan and his team. And honestly? I didn’t expect it to feel as emotional as it did. From the outside, it probably just looked like fandom merchandise. A package. Photos. Small collectibles. Things people…

Honestly? If you told me a few years ago that I would one day create a Weibo account just to follow someone from another country, I probably would’ve laughed at you. And yet… here we are. Somewhere between late-night livestreams, random clips on my algorithm, translating comments, and trying to…

I think this year reminded me why fandom became emotionally important to me in the first place years ago. Not because of obsession. Not because I wanted to escape reality completely. But because fandom creates comfort. Routine. Community. Lightness. And honestly? After everything emotionally heavy that happened this year, I…

If I’m being honest, I didn’t think I would become this emotionally attached to livestream routines again. At first, it was casual entertainment. Something lighthearted to watch after long days. But somewhere along the way, those streams quietly became part of my emotional routine. And honestly? I didn’t fully realize…

I honestly thought my algorithm was already settled after discovering Aluo. And then somehow, Chuan Nan suddenly appeared too. At first, it was just random clips showing up occasionally. Then more clips. Then livestream moments. Then suddenly I realized I already recognized his voice, expressions, habits, and little mannerisms without…

I think one thing adulthood teaches you is that comfort starts mattering more than excitement eventually. And honestly? That realization explains a lot about the kind of content I naturally gravitate toward lately. Especially online. Lately, I’ve been thinking about how certain online personalities simply feel comforting to watch. Not…

Lately, my nights have started looking very different compared to earlier this year. Before, nighttime mostly meant emotional exhaustion. Trying to recover mentally from stressful days. Trying to quiet my thoughts enough to rest. But recently? My evenings started feeling lighter again somehow. And honestly? I think livestreams became part…

I honestly didn’t expect a random algorithm recommendation to become part of my daily life this quickly. But somehow, that’s exactly what happened with Aluo. At first, it was casual curiosity. One clip. Then another. Then suddenly I realized I was intentionally checking for uploads and livestream schedules without even…

Lately, I’ve been thinking a lot about how different the internet feels now compared to years ago. Especially fandom spaces. Before, everything felt smaller somehow. More personal. More genuine. People waited for uploads excitedly. Comment sections felt alive. Communities felt closer. And honestly? I miss that feeling sometimes. Not because…