Lately, nighttime feels emotionally heavier than daytime somehow.
Maybe because everything becomes quieter.
Maybe because overthinking becomes louder at night.
Or maybe because this entire year already feels emotionally overwhelming in general.
So recently, I started relying on music more than usual before sleeping.
Not intentionally at first.
But somehow late-night playlists slowly became part of my emotional routine during lockdown.
I usually just lie in bed scrolling through YouTube, Spotify, random live performances, covers, and old uploads until I eventually start feeling sleepy.
And honestly?
Those quiet moments became strangely comforting.
I think familiar songs feel safer during uncertain times.
Especially this year.
When everything outside already feels unpredictable, replaying familiar voices somehow creates a sense of emotional stability.
Even temporarily.
There are nights where I replay the exact same covers multiple times without realizing it.
Not because I’m overly focused on the songs themselves anymore.
But because familiarity became comforting.
Predictable.
Emotionally grounding.
And honestly?
I think that’s one reason fandom quietly stayed important to me during difficult seasons.
Not because life suddenly became easier.
But because music made emotionally heavy days feel slightly less lonely somehow.
One day at a time,
